I don’t even hit with my head glued to the ball. I hit with reaction, I snag the ball in mid flight before it gets to me, I meet the ball, I don’t follow it.
The first pitch I saw – let me see, I’m trying to remember. I am watching the Diamondbacks losing by a run in the seventh inning against the Giants. Joe Saunders, the Diamondbacks starting pitcher has just gotten hit hard by two screaming line drive singles pulled into right field and the Giants now have runners on first and second with no outs. Once again I marvel at the beauty and yet useless beauty of the hard hit liner in which runners move quickly but advance only one base at a time, the same results of a walk, a bunt, and an error. Saunders and the Diamondbacks quickly get out of this inning with a double play and a third out on a pretty dance in which the third baseman, Ryan Roberts, two-steps to his left to snag a grounder but can’t reach it, and the shortstop, John McDonald, comes up behind him to swoop the ball and throw a kind of blooper over the third baseman’s head to get the runner out on first. No runs scored.
The first pitch I saw I followed into the catcher’s mitt with my eyes, to honor the principal of seeing and not swinging at the first pitch. It was on the inside part of the plate, I saw it rather well and immediately regretted not swinging at it. For one, I had actually failed to follow the pitch, I lost it before it even reached the plate. And I don’t even hit with my head glued to the ball: I hit with reaction, I snag the ball in mid-flight before it gets to me, I meet the ball, I don’t follow it. If I’m going to do this not-swing strategy on first pitches, I ought to know how to do it. I’ve got to not swing the same way that I swing, with a sudden movement of my hips and legs into the rotation, and to imagine how I would have swung to make contact on the sweet part of the bat. What’s worse is that it was a perfect pitch for my new found capacity to hit inside pitches with great force. I knew that I had lost an opportunity and that I had gained nothing useful from the experience. I was still not ready to swing. Next pitch was a ball, a little high and inside. I somehow got to two and one. I was still uncomfortable. What a fucking mental game. Here we are, a softball game, the last of the indoor season. Our team’s got beginners and experienced guys and gals; power and contact; we bunt all the time; there are women and men; youth abounds but there some of my age; there are parents, families, and friends, spectators everywhere; we’re in a gym, I’m batting sixth, designated hitter, we’ve got fifty minutes per game, twenty of us showed up today; my energy’s not yet in the game, its in the artficiality of the setting. There’s a two-year old boy who’s swinging an empty one-liter water bottle better than many players here in the gym. I’m deeply sad that my own son is not here. I am momentarily confused how to hit. I think the third pitch was an outside ball and the second was an inside and high almost strike. Or the third might have been slightly high and outside, a pitch that was both unhittable and possibly a brilliant strike on the outside corner. So with two and one, I’m thinking, here comes a strike and I’m not ready for it. He’s a good pitcher, fairly fast. He seems to have the edge with two and one because two and one gives the batter the impression he’s ahead and he’s hungry to swing at anything that looks good and the pitcher knows this so he throws a kind of pitch hungry batters can’t hit, down. Be patient. But I’m not. It’s the fear of two strikes. The fear of watching a good pitch go down the middle. But if I watch another pitch, I might remember how to swing a bat. The mental game is lost, clearly, and all I can do is hope for a lucky swing. But that’s not about to happen as I dribble a slow grounder to the pitcher. Out. Last out of the inning. My batting average is somewhere near .800, I’ve been on base almost all of the time, and yet I believe all of my outs are the third out of the inning. That statistic is really useless … I think.
Second at bat I get on base with a line drive bunt to the thirdbasewoman which I luckily run out. It was the first pitch. I bunted it with such good contact, it makes me wonder what would have happened had I had swung. But we ultimately score 10 runs and win the game, so I’m not going to waste any time on commenting about bunt strategy. Besides, its getting late, the diamondbacks have just scored two runs on an excellent line drive to the opposite field, a two rbi triple by the righty first baseman Paul Goldschmidt. Now it’s the top of the ninth, the drama continues, Diamondbacks’ closer JJ Putz has just given up a blooper single. There are no outs. Three outs to go. No. Two outs, he struck out pinchhitter Giant Pablo Sandoval, who’s got a chiseled face. The second out was a rather good hit directly to the center fielder Chris Young. One more out to go.
My third at bat came in the second game. That too was a bunt on a zero zero count. The pitcher is throwing slow pitches right over the middle. On my second at bat, I am given the sign to hit and I swing on the first pitch, a pulled grounder that bounded over the third baseman’s head. Kind of cool that kind of hit, but it feels like I missed the contact – I got on top of the ball, too ahead of it, I am not waiting, it was not as solid as I’d like. Third at bat I regain my stance and again I am given the sign to swing and I rip an inside pitch past the thirdbaseman’s head, the ball makes a straight line to the back wall of the gym, it was pulled really well, perfect contact. Silence followed, I’m getting used to people taking notice of my swing. The Diamondbacks win the game and they clinch last year’s division title. We win our second game of the day, first game was ten to three and this one was ten to one. I like this team.